there’s something about sunsets

The sun’s setting down, leaving some shades of red and orange; a majestic view I longed for before the day ends — a proof that endings are beautiful too. The warmth that it gives, added a calming effect to wash away the jitters creeping onto me as the night unfolds into the skyline. Sure there’s something about sunsets.

I love how its color seeps through in my windows, reflecting its beauty even if I chose to lock myself in my box-type room, washing away the sullen state of it. Maybe, just maybe, it’s just a sign that gives off a glimpse of what’s more outside my window, and all I need to do is to open that window or step out of the room.

Even if we had a long day, good or bad, something beautiful is waiting for us at the end of the day.

Such a beautiful life we have, and all we need is to admire and enjoy the beauty of it. Even if it’s the end of the day or the beginning, we always have something to be thankful for.

I once had a best friend (and other stories)

I am very jealous, envious rather, when I see my sister and her best friend. I am very opened to them on how I wished to have that kind of friendship but never had a chance or I had a chance but didn’t get a hold of it for a very long time. My sister and her best friend had known each other for eight long years. Would you imagine that? And until now, though Pinky, her best friend’s name, moved to Mindoro and decided to live there for two years after living with us for a long time. I think this will be the first time that those two would be separated from each other.

They are very close up to the point where they share almost everything — clothes, foods, house, (and even boyfriend. Lol — but it is true. Her boyfriend is everyone’s boyfriend. Not that he’s sleeping with everyone, but he acts as a boyfriend to all of us since we already knew each other personally and we lived in the same roof whenever they wanted and I think that’s cute and sweet.) plus she’s cool with that.

I once had a best friend. I met her in second grade, we were in the same class. I remember she’s alone and since our surname starts with letter M, we were in the same line in the seat plan and became close since then. But in our third grade, I transferred school and I felt sad that time because I wasn’t going to see her if I transferred school. I moved to a public school because I think we were financially challenged that time and my mother was working abroad that time, that was the time I experienced to be bullied since I came from a private school. After the bullying incident, and when my grandmother knew about it because my grades went down from the line of 9’s to 7’s, she decided to transfer me back to the private school that I enrolled before and I remember being happy that time; not because I will be free from those kids who bullied me, but I will be able to see my friend again.

Luckily, I was in the same class with my friend J and since then, we became best friends. We graduated, and went to high school together. Soon we entered high school, our friendship started to fade out. Since grade school, we have the same class together. We have the same circle of friends, but when we set foot as a high school-er, things became different. We were no longer in the same class. We met different people and created new circle of friends. We were still close but not that close compared when we were in grade school. That made me sad. Until we graduated high school, little did we notice that our friendship faded out and we didn’t know how it happened.

I had another best friend, but this time it was a boy best friend. I met him in my junior year and through a mutual friend. I never thought that I will be close to him. At first, it was awkward because I felt unsure if he really wanted friendship or more than that. I was not wrong, he attempted to ask me to be his girlfriend but I said no. I reasoned out that I find him comfortable, that I don’t want to lose him, that he’s the only person that time that I trusted the most. And since that confession, we somehow lost our communication. Maybe to find what we really wanted or maybe he was hurt from what I said. But not too long, he talked to me again and said that he was cool being only my best friend. Up until now, we’re still best friends, but we don’t talk that often because of our personal relationships. My boyfriend and her girlfriend were the jealous type, and I totally understand it. What’s important to me is I get to talk to him when I have my problems and same with him.

But, what do you think about that? Being not able to talk casually with your guy best friend (if you were a girl) just because of the girlfriend? This is my say about it: before you had your girl, you knew me first right? So why not talk to me AND YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND FOR GOOD’S SAKE? Where were you when I needed someone to talk to? And to the jealous-type girlfriends of my best friend: It’s not like I’ll snatch him away from you. *eye rolls* HAHAHAHA!

 Am I being selfish here? LOL.

Uhhhh. But now, I am good having my boyfriend as my “best friend”, though he’s not acting like one. LOL. But I am contented having him as my confidante, my endorphin and my breather. โค

But I’m going to leave this here: So how do we consider someone as a best friend, really? Is it about the time you’ve known each other or even though you just met that person in a short time, the connection was enough? I really want to read your thoughts. ๐Ÿ™‚

an anecdote of a girl who never played her dolls

Though I have no vivid images of how my childhood was, I somehow remember some experiences that I had. And like any other kids, I remember having toys and dolls but the difference is, I wasn’t able to play my dolls.

I remember having so many dolls: Barbie? You name it. I have a complete set with houses, wardrobes, and pets. Not just barbies, I also have a life-size kitchen set for kids. Most of it was given to me as a gift on my birthdays & Christmas and the rest was bought by my grandmother. But, I never played them.

I don’t remember who put it in a nice clear plastic and displayed it. The boxes were never opened. But I remember what my grandmother said when I asked if I can play with my dolls:ย baka masira lang, pag laki mo na. (it might just break, you can play it when you grow up) and since I was just a kid that time, I agreed. Years passed, I never able to play with it until I get in high school. I don’t remember what happened to my dolls, maybe my mother gave it to my cousins I don’t know, and just like that, it disappeared before my eyes.

I said to myself that if ever I will have a daughter, I will buy her dolls and let her play with it whenever she wants. I always wanted to play dolls — like braiding the hair, change her from gowns to dresses, and ofc play my dolls with a friend. I want my daughter to experience what I haven’t. I don’t want her to live like me; no clear images of how my childhood was. I want her to remember every single day of her childhood. I want her to make good memories even if she’s still a kid.

If ever there’s a room with a time machine, I will go back to when I asked my grandmother if I can play with my dolls, and even if she didn’t allow me to play with it, I will sneak out of my room and get my doll from the display and play with it. ๐Ÿ˜€

PS: I remember playing paper dolls but a real barbie doll was better, right? Hahahaha.

my song(s) of the week

I always have this one song or playlist that I want to listen to in my entire week, like I got LSS to it or became my new favorite. That song might become my favorite for a whole week or month, I don’t know, then suddenly I will stop listening to it for a long time. But one thing’s for sure, it will be the only song that I will listen non-stop until I get tired of it for an entire week.

I am not really updated on TOP 100 billboard and anything related to music, but the songs that I listened to are usually from my boyfie’s phone or my sister’s. And some of it I knew because I just heard it from the radio or from a noontime show. In fact, I don’t update my Apple music anymore, thus I downloaded an app called Share It so I can just ask someone to send me files or music through it.

Here’s (4) songs that I’ve been listening to this week:

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me as my sister’s canvas (lol)

I don’t usually put makeup, except if there’s a special occasion. But yesterday, my sister decided to play with my face and wanted to try something.

I don’t have my own makeup kit and I really don’t know what brush or powder to use. I just prefer to wear my lip tints and draw my eye brow and that’s it. No more complicated steps to follow. Another fact about me is: I don’t use powder on my face nor wash my face with soap. It is very sensitive, I get pimples easily. ย But I am proud that my face is so smooth. Lol.

Moving on, so my sister made some magic. It was a lazy afternoon and we have nothing to do so we decided to play with her makeup kit. My sister is so girly than me. She has a lot of knowledge when it comes to makeup. I think I am not really a girl but I am just trapped with a girl’s body. ๐Ÿ˜‚ That’s what I like about her: she can make me more pretty. She’s also the one who draws my eyebrows perfectly. (When kilay is life ๐Ÿ˜‚)

See, what I mean? Hahahaha!๐Ÿ˜‚

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BUT! I told her that once she puts makeup on me, I will do the same thing with her. And here’s the result: ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

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What do you think??? I can do magic too, right? XD

the a w e s o m e blogger award (X2)

THE RULES:

โ—Š Thank the person who nominated you.
โ—Š Tag it under #awesomebloggeraward in the Reader
โ—Š Answer the questions your nominator gave you.
โ—Š Nominate at least 5 awesome bloggers.
โ—Š Give your nominees 10 new questions to answer.
โ—Š Let your nominees know that theyโ€™ve been nominated.


Two in a row!!!!! Here’s another award. I didn’t expect all this award thing but I am not gonna deny it — I LOVE ANSWERING ALL THE QUESTIONS. HAHAHA!! I love how I discover new blogs through this and I think I am low-key giving some snippets of who really I am at the same time.

I would like to thank Amielle & Justine for nominating me for this Awesome Blogger Award! You can click their names to check their blogs! โค

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Amielle’s Questions:

  1.  What is your childhood dream that you never get to push/achieve? If you have read my past entries, I already shared my dead dream of being a flight attendant, which still has a place in my heart until now. I wished to travel to places I’ve never been to, that’s why since I was a kid, I dreamed to be one. Another reason is, I love how sophisticated and classy and beautiful they are. I always imagine myself wearing their uniforms and walk with a luggage and buy and collect souvenirs from different places that I will go. Ughhhhhh
  2. If you could wake up and be anywhere in the world, where would it be? The first place that came to mind is South America or the UK. ๐Ÿ˜€
  3. Books or movies? BOOKS!!!
  4. Would it be fine if your future child reads your blog? Maybe yes, maybe no. But I want my child to know how I lived my life and learn from it. 
  5. If you could give an advice about the future to the 7-year-old you, what would it be? Y O L O. Live your life to the fullest because life is short.
  6. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? (Not a job interview question; I just really want to know.) I seriously don’t know how/what to answer this one. I am still having an existential crisis at the moment (lol) and I’m still searching for my calling. Lol. I get back to this when I know the answer. ๐Ÿ˜€
  7. Do you think youโ€™re still writing when youโ€™re 40? Definitely yes.
  8. If writing isnโ€™t your hobby at the moment, what do you think are you doing? DANCING. ๐Ÿ˜€ 
  9. If you could have the writing skills of a specific blogger, who would it be? It would be Joyce Pring, I love how she’s spontaneous, witty and knowledgeable in writing her thoughts, and also her TRAVEL BLOG!!!!!! โค
  10. What is your lifeโ€™s greatest accomplishment so far? getting out of my comfort zone, I joined a beauty pageant (which is not my thing) but I got an award and got to top 10. Not bad for a first timer, I guess. :–)

Justine’s Questions:

  1. What is that one advice you can give to the new bloggers about blogging? Just write for yourself and never feel pressured. As for me, I always write whatever comes to mind thinking that no one’s reading it. I think that’s what’s important, having an outlet to write what you feel or write the things you are passionate about. ๐Ÿ™‚
  2. What is  your biggest fear? Aside from flying cockroach, I am afraid of heights and total darkness.
  3. Best compliment you have received? hm, there’s nothing that I can think of right now.
  4. What cheers you up? Sweets. Listening to music. Being alone.
  5. What do you constantly think about that, either makes you sad or just anything? Ohhhhhh. I have a lot of these lately. I think about people who judge me and misunderstand me. All the people who made rumors about me. About my life — what will happen to my life. (Can I make another blog post about this?)
  6. What was the experience that impacted you the most in your life? The day my grandmother died. My life has changed since then.
  7. Do you usually follow your heart or your head? My heart. But now, I realised that it is important to use our brain too when making a decision. 
  8. Whatโ€™s the one thing you would like to change about yourself today and why? Me being tongue-tied. I should, at least once, tell what I really felt despite of what others will say to me. I regretted being the quiet one but right now, I know the consequences.
  9. Do you hold grudges or do you forgive easily? I forgive easily and I think that’s my weakness. ๐Ÿ™‚
  10. What is the best advice youโ€™ve ever been given? That everything will be okay, when all things fall into its right place and at the right time.

Whooo! All these questions made me think too hard but I really enjoyed it! Thank you Amielle and Justine for these questions (that I don’t usually ask for myself)

I NOMINATE ALL MY FOLLOWERS TO DO THIS. (I still have a short list, that’s why)

MY QUESTIONS:

  1. If you are given a chance to change your name, what would it be?
  2. If you will have a power to teleport right now, where will it be and why?
  3. One song that describes your life right now.
  4. To love or To be loved?
  5. Quote a favorite line in your favorite book.
  6. That one word you find to be the worst word you ever know.
  7. Your favorite word. ๐Ÿ™‚
  8. If you can switch life with another person, who would it be and why?
  9. Say something about me. ๐Ÿ˜€
  10. Share your daily mantra ๐Ÿ™‚

Tag me if you do this, I would love to read your answers! โค

what do you think about my blog?

So here I am being overly obsessed on how my blog looks like. I am thinking it lacks in color or it is just a sign that I should really put pictures on my posts? Or featured image? The problem is, I am having a hard time using my photoshop [lol, yeah I sucked in my ICT class]. I am looking for mobile apps that I can use but nothing seems to be fit to my likings.

GUYS, I. NEED. YOUR. HELP. Or if you can suggest a good mobile app that can help me, you’ll be my angel!!!!! โค โค