I never met the parentals of my past boyfriends (my current boyf is an exemption); I just don’t like the idea of meeting them (until now, I hate that idea). Don’t get me wrong, ofc I want to meet them but to stay close to them? I think it will be kinda hard for me to do that AS OF NOW, being just the girlfriend. I am serious about my relationships (If you think that I am not) and I think it doesn’t matter (in my opinion) if I don’t meet the parents straightaway or maybe if he just want me to meet them so that they can know that their son has a girlfriend where he spend all his allowance to but no, I didn’t agreed to meet one in my past relationships not until now (which is another story). Maybe that’s how (I think) I keep my relationship steady. I don’t know.
I am anxious right now, if that’s the right word to describe what I am feeling right now. Tomorrow I will meet my boyfriend’s mother and I don’t know what to do. I have no idea at all. Having no experience on how to deal with this kind of situation, the red alarm is on!!!
I’ve seen her over skype (that’s okay with me) and talk to her over the phone and we are friends on Facebook but the idea of meeting her in person feels so jittery. And having heard from my mother that she wants to talk about me marrying her son, and I was like OHHHHHH WAIT. WHAT?! I AM ONLY 22 AND YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT MARRIAGE. Maybe that’s one of the reasons why I am like this towards her. It doesn’t mean that I don’t like her. I like her. She’s being kind to me and I feel that I am already part of their family, she’s being considerate and I almost feels that she’s like another mother to me. But MARRIAGE is a different thing. Funny that other parents will forbid marriage not until their daughter and/or son reached 28 or have a stable job before settling down. THIS. IS. SO. DIFFERENT. I. WANT. TO. CRY.
I am not ready, that’s the truth. I already opened this up to my boyfriend and he has no idea about it either. I know that this is not part of our plan but I still made sure that he understands where I am coming from without offending him. I still have a lot of things that I want to do with my life and it is the same with my boyfriend and
let’s face it: I AM ONLY 22. 22, I should travel more. 22, I should have a stable job and make tons of money. 22, I should just enjoy my life without thinking of anything. 22, I should be having movie dates with my BOYFRIEND. UGH, I AM ONLY 22, PEOPLE!!!!
I have already enough rumors on my hand and I can’t take more. Don’t get me wrong again, ofc I want to marry my boyfriend. What’s the sense of having a 1 year 6 months relationship if we will not end standing beside each other at the front of the altar, right? Sounds cheesy but what I am trying to say is, it SHOOKT me!! lmao.
WOOOOH. I almost type this post without a pause because this has been rampaging my mind since I heard it from my mom. Hoping that tomorrow will just be a simple bonding and get-to-know-each-other situation than opening up that topic. GAAAAAAHD, I DON’T KNOW HOW MY MOTHER WILL REACT IF THAT HAPPENS. She always keep on reminding me (since she talked about it with my boyf’s mom; YES, they talk over chat) that my boyfriend and I should talk about it and should not agree with that idea now (and that’s what I really want) because she still wants me to continue and focus with my school first and ofc to be more ready before entering that chapter of my life.